so today, my best friends told me that my tumblr makes me appear quite shallow, selfish and superficial. (and they are probably going to read this post, but I don’t give two shits)

of course, I know I post a lot about how “famous” and “super-awesome” I apparently am, but am I the only one noticing I don’t actually mean and agree with that? It’s like, even though I am getting a lot of hate the last days for being the way mentioned above, I don’t really change anything about what I blog about. This is my blog and my personal text posts are most of the time just there for me to write stuff down and hear one or two opinions from other people. Most of the time, the hate I get afterwards is helpful and manages to make me look at my “problems” from another point of view.

But the thing is; whenever I blog about how I got noticed on the street or on a party or how I hit thousand likes on Facebook, I am actually not trying to brag. And I am sure this comes across not convincing and sincere at all, but I truly mean it that way. As odd as it sounds, I simply can not believe it myself that things like that happen and so they start to make me think. I am just so confused about this whole popularity stuff, I never really intended to get a lot of followers or likes or whatevers, in fact, it just somehow happened and now I have no clue how to deal with it. I don’t want to become selfish because of that and I actually don’t think I have gotten selfish that much because of it, just a little ignorant at some parts. Sometimes, or quite often, I forget what I have and don’t really appreciate it. I don’t actually care if you will read this now and be like “omg he is so stupid, he is thinking he is so famous/cool/awesome but he isn’t” because … well … I simply don’t care, that is all. 

I actually don’t know where I was going with this post so I am just going to stop here. Think what you want to think, everything more that I’d write now wouldn’t be what I actually think, it would be just stuff so the post appears “complete”. But (alert, pseudo-deep ending following) because my thoughts aren’t complete, this text post isn’t either.

ps: homesick by radical face is such a good song!